Not an analogy NOR will this make any sense.

The Lord is growing me by leaps and bounds. I feel like He is BLOWING my mind beyond belief lately. Seriously. Being expanded. I mean BLOWING my mind. Praise HIM!!!!

Who knows what will happen or what is going on but I am so thankful for the Lord and the fact that He is Sovereign and good and true and Holy and that he created me female... that he knows the times set for me and that they are in His hands. I am so thankful for His Holy Spirit- for conviction!

Today I only have one class scheduled and I decided not to go to it and just spend the day getting some work done. I have done no school work since arising this morning about 3 hours ago. Nor have I eaten or left my room or gotten out from under the covers. HAHHAHAHHA
Its 57 degrees in our house (hello frugal Asian roommate and no heat yet. Love you Yvonne!)

First I have been reading Elizabeth Elliots book on discipline and its BY FAR my favorite book of all time I think. Its amazing. She is amazing.
I love the spontaneous outbursts of WHOA that come out of my mouth as I read.

So what is really blowing my mind this morning is Ephesians.... currently reading it in the ESV and its so different!!!! I mean NIV its like I disengage my brain a little.... because I memorized like the first 3 chapters a few years ago.... I don't really remember it to say it to you now but its just like it doesn't sink in. I read over it and its like yeah yeah.... know that... if that makes any sense. But now reading it in ESV its so different!

I love chapter 5 verse 9... this doesn't even sound familiar to me.... like what does that correlate to in NIV? I have no idea. "for the fruit of the light is found in all that is good and right and true."
AMEN! wow- I love that!

and then the next verse (10)- Paul says to the Ephesians "try to discern what is pleasing to the Lord!"
It is discernment needed!!! Sometimes I think that I should just know what is the right thing. That if I was truly abiding in Christ that it would be easy. But I think me constantly trying to figure out what is right is okay- I need discernment to KNOW what pleases Him in the minor details of life that aren't neccessarily Biblical commands. May I please You in all LORD!

Or how about 4:29? This was the theme verse of our house when I lived in North Carolina. We called it the encouraging house. I have that memorized in NIV but its also missing a little phrase..."Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouth, but only such as is good for building up, AS FITS THE OCCASION, that it may give grace to those who hear. "
Appropriateness in context. Definitely am convicted here. SOmetimes I may give encouragement to build someone up but it may not be fitting the occasion/context. Forgive me Lord! Set guard over my mouth and my speech!!! May it bring you glory always!

4:4.... the hope that BELONGS TO OUR CALL??? What does that mean?

"But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ's gift. Therefore it says: 'when he ascended on high he led a host of captives and he gave gifts to men."
AMEN.

How bout Paul's beautiful prayer in chapter 3. It has always been one of my favorite passages of Scripture of all time. But again- slightly different. Check out verse 18 especially. "that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have the strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth (END) and to know the love of Christ that surpasses all knowledge so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Do u see that? Its like that we may comprehend what is the breadth and length and height and depth.... thats it. NIV says that we may comprehend the breadth and depth and width of HIS LOVE. By putting that and before knowing the love of Christ it totally changes it doesn't it?? What I might comprehend what IS the breadth and depth.

I know this will probably not make any sense. Nor do I really care.
Holy fire, burn away- my desire for anything that is not of you and is of me. I want more of you and less of me.
OK. I REALLY should get some work done now. ;)
o man.